galauu

kupikir ini adalah kebodohanku
aku yang galau
yang ternyata terselip sosokmu dalam mimpi-mimpiku
bagaimanapun ku menyibukkan diri
ternyata otakku berpikir tentangmu
di suatu masa, suatu cerita
kisah ini tak pernah dimulai
dan tak pernah selesai

kupikir aku salah
janji terucap dari bibirku
bahwa tak akan kucinta seseorang lagi
namun, ah,
kenangan-kenangan itu mengalir begitu saja
terngiang dalam pikirku
saat-saat kita bercanda bersama
di suatu masa, suatu cerita
kisah ini tak pernah dimulai
dan tak pernah selesai

mungkin kau hanya berbohong padaku
ketika kau katakan cantik pada diriku
yah, aku tau, sudah sepantasnya bagi seorang sahabat untuk menghibur sahabatnya
aku tahu sekarang
pasti itu hanya candaanmu saja
semua waktu-waktu itu
kau tidak pernah benar-benar bermaksud, kan?
di suatu masa, suatu cerita
kisah ini tak pernah dimulai
dan tak pernah selesai

bodoh
aku jatuh untuk sahabatku sendiri
kupikir aku salah
kesalahan fatal
tahukah kau betapa gilanya aku, berkata pada otakku sendiri untuk berhenti memikirkanmu?
sepertinya memang hatiku sudah gila
untuk terus berdenyut memikirkan seseorang
yang tak seharusnya aku pikirkan
di suatu masa, suatu cerita
kisah ini tak pernah dimulai
dan tak pernah selesai

bukankah lucu,
ketika seorang lelaki berkata bahwa ia menyukai seorang gadis
gadis itu akan tersipu malu
dan berusaha mengalihkan pembicaraan
padahal dalam hatinya, seribu alat musik bertabuh ramai,
dan bertanya-tanya,
sungguh-sungguhkah engkau?
di suatu masa, suatu cerita
kisah ini tak pernah dimulai
dan tak pernah selesai

dan inilah aku
terpuruk, menertawakan kebodohanku sendiri
yang menyukaimu
tanpa syarat
tanpa alasan
hanya karena kegilaan ini, sahabat
kupikir saat itu kau sungguh-sungguh dengan kata-katamu
sampai kau berhasil membuka hatiku lagi
ah, bodoh
seharusnya perasaan ini tak pernah ada

kini aku kehilangan kata-kataku di depanmu
setiap kali mataku tak sengaja menangkap sosokmu,
muncul pertanyaan gila di otakku, adakah matamu melakukan hal yang sama?

dan saat itu juga,
ketika datang gadis jelita itu
dengan pesonanya yang luar biasa
yang dapat membuat semua lelaki jatuh padanya
dengan hanya satu kalimat yang terucap dari bibir mungilnya

mataku menangkap sosokmu
memandang pada gadis itu, gadis yang berdiri di sampingku
dengan tatapan yang bahkan tak pernah kulihat ketika kau bercanda gurau denganku
kau jatuh cinta padanya
ya, aku bisa melihatnya dari binar matamu..
saat yang sama, gadis biasa yang berdiri di samping gadis jelita itu
jika kau dapat melihatnya, kepingan hati gadis biasa itu
pecah, retak, hancur
melihat kau memandanginya
dan nada suaramu padanya

gadis biasa itu
yang selama ini mendengarkan semua curahan hatimu
berusaha membantumu sejauh yang ia bisa
gadis itu hatinya pecah
namun dia tetap tersenyum,
tertawa di depanmu, walaupun di dalam ia menangis..

mungkin memang sekarang gadis biasa itu
kehilangan kata-katanya di depanmu
kehilangan mukanya di depanmu
karena dia merasa bukan bandingan,
tak ada apa-apanya dari gadis jelita itu
ah ya, tapi kumohon ingatlah
gadis itu tetap ingin menjadi sahabatmu
menjadi tempat sampah, tempatmu mengutarakan segala amarah dan kesalmu
seperti dulu, seperti selalu,
seperti selamanya..

di suatu masa, suatu cerita
kisah ini tak pernah dimulai
dan tak pernah selesai..




dara antares - 270511

insomniac #2 - the end!

okay I should end this !

for tomorrow,
war of the year.



Bismillah.

umm okay

BISMILLAH!!!
*ngalay



Walau berpeluh pantang mengeluh
Walau berdarah pantang menyerah
Bismillah saya yakin nilai seratus
ALLAHU AKBAR!!




*terngiangmasasenamunasmode:on :))

insomniac

again
aaaaa
untuk kesekian kalinya


saya insomnia




padahal besok uas, ujian kenaikan kelas
00:10
dan buku + soal tryout di sebelah saya, saya duakan hahaha

oh damn





ayo belajar jangan ngeblog terus bzzz .___."

God ♥

♥

HAHAHA and I trusted you woww

be grateful

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end

saat kenangan tinggal kenangan
yang tersisa setelah segala pedih dan tawa

saat cerita telah berujung
yang tak pernah dapat ditebak akhirnya

saat buku telah ditutup
dan lembar terakhir hanya tersisa penyesalan


saat tak ada lagi yang dapat kau percaya


berubahkah aku?
atau mataku yang buta saat itu?



sekarang semua tampak palsu.
terima kasih.

gara gara mbak senam --

gara gara mbak instruktur senam tiap jumat pagi aku jadi suka dengerin lagu ini -___-
tapi gapapa wes hahah :D

Hadise - Crazy For You (Düm Tek Tek)

Baby you’re perfect for me
you are my gift from heaven
this is the greatest story of all times
we met like in a movie
so meant to last forever
and what you’re doing to me
feels so fine

Angel, I wake up
and live my dreams
endlessly
crazy for you

Can you feel the rhythm in my heart
the beats going Düm Tek Tek
always out it like there’s no limit
feels like there’s no way back
Can you feel the rhythm in my heart
the beat’s going Düm Tek Tek
always out it like there’s no limit
feels like there’s no way back

Baby i read all answers
in your exotic movements
you are the greatest dancer of all times
you make me feel so special
no one can kiss like you do
as if it’s your profession
feel so fine

Angel i wake up and live my dreams
endlessly
crazy for you

Can you feel the rhythm in my heart
the beats going Düm Tek Tek
always out it like there’s no limit
feels like there’s no way back
can you feel the rhythm in my heart
the beats going Düm Tek Tek
always out it like there’s no limit
feels like there’s no way back

Can you feel the rhythm in my heart

Can you feel the rhythm in my heart
the beats going Düm Tek Tek
always out it like there’s no limit
feels like there’s no way back
can you feel the rhythm in my heart
the beats going Düm Tek Tek
always out it like there’s no limit
feels like there’s no way back

always out it like it no minute
feels like there’s no way back
always out it like there’s no limit
feels like Düm Tek Tek

hahaha :p

curious

men have the ability to charm women until they fall for them and for men it's only a game, nothing more. and for men they are proud of that thing, conquering women's hearts and then if they leave them it's not a big deal for them, because it's only a game.



is that so?

until this moment,
when I am close to somebody (different gender),
there would be someone who come to me and tell me I shouldn't be close with him.
they would say, "Darling, he's not good for you." "There will be someone better for you." or "You don't know who he really is."
or things like that.

really?

I mean, how could they conclude things like that?
Nobody's perfect, right?
Well okay, people can have their own opinions. They have the right for it.
But hey,
you can't judge people that way.
No one knows who someone really is inside. Neither do I.

But please,
be positive.

Don't judge people if you don't want to be judged either.

Above all, we should be aware on our actions and how we interact with our society.
It is true though, girls like me us, should be really really careful on choosing friends.
Yes there are bad guys out there who might be doing bad things to you. If you are not careful.


and for men, please, take good care of your lady.


thanks.
dara.antares





my song today :
Bruno Mars - Runaway baby

Ah yes
Well, look at here, look at here
Ah, what do we have?
Another pretty thing ready for me to grab

But little does she know
That I'm a wolf in sheep's clothing
'Cause at the end of the night
It is her I'll be holding

I love you so (hey)
That's what you'll say (that's what you'll say)
You'll tell me
Baby, baby please don't go away (don't go away)
But when I play (when I play), I never stay (I never stay)

To every girl that I meet here
This is what I say

Run, run, runaway, runaway baby
Before I put my spell on you
You better get, get, getaway, getaway darling
'Cause everything you heard is true

Your poor little heart will end up alone
'Cause lord knows I'm a rolling stone
So you better run, run, runaway, runaway baby

Ah yeah
Well, let me think, let me think
Ah, what should I do?
So many eager young bunny's
That I'd like to pursue

Now even now they eating
Out the palm of my hand
There's only one carrot
And they all gotta share it

I love you so (hey)
That's what you'll say (that's what you'll say)
You'll tell me
Baby, baby please don't go away (don't go away)
But when I play (when I play), I never stay (I never stay)

To every girl that I meet here
This is what I say

Run, run, runaway, runaway baby
Before I put my spell on you
You better get, get, getaway, getaway darling
'Cause everything you heard is true

Your poor little heart will end up alone
'Cause lord knows I'm a rolling stone
So you better run, run, runaway, runaway baby

See I ain't try to hurt you, baby
No, no, no I just wanna work you baby, yup, yup
See I ain't try to hurt you, baby
No, no, no I just wanna work you baby

If you scared, you better run (you better run)
You better run (you better run), you better run (you better run)
You better, you better, you better

Run, run, runaway, runaway baby
Before I put my spell on you
You better get, get, getaway, getaway darling
'Cause everything you heard is true

Your poor little heart will end up alone
'Cause lord knows I'm a rolling stone
So you better run, run, runaway, runaway baby

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opinions

throughout life,
you'll learn that people have their own opinions,
thousands of them, and they are all different.

sometimes they're good, but sometimes they're bad.
even some are really harsh and may insult you.

but think of this,
human-beings are easier to remember bad things people done, and argue about it.

listen to them.
listen to what people say about you.
but don't let yourself be their slaves.
don't let their words destroy you,

instead,
stand up and smile to them.
be yourself.
people can say anything about you,

but you should never be someone else to please people.

everyone made mistakes,
everyone may have enemies or haters they might never know.



no one's perfect.



remember,

dara.antares
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goodbye

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lessons in life

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my stupid mouth :'(

I had this plan on my head for weeks, and I was almost, almost there,
and then it's ruined! everything was ruined, my stupid mouth! :'(((((


My stupid mouth
Has got me in trouble
I said too much again
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see
She was offended
She said "well anyway..."
Just dying for a subject change


Oh, another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one soon


We bit our lips
She looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker
And I could see clearly, An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what JUST slipped out and what went wrong


Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one


I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me


Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now... Starting now


One more thing
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it's all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked
I just wanna be funny
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire


I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me


oh i'm never speaking up again
i'm never speaking up again
i'm never speaking up again

Starting now, starting now...




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results

45/100


maybe not now :)

OSN todaaay :)

finally, alhamdulillaaaah I've done my biology olympics for this year :)
honestly I found it much better (easier) than last year.
maybe it's because now I'm in the second grade and last year I was just a freshman who knew nothing at all :p

not saying that now I know everything, at least better :)

and I was totally excited when I opened the paper for the first time and read the sentence
"Tidak ada sistem minus" -no minus scores.
and that did mean really much benefits for us yay!
furthermore, we were given 120mins to finish all the questions, which I think we have the best *relaxing* type of questions to be done.

My paper (biology) consisted of 100 multiple-choice questions, with 120 time to spare.

others?
Chemistry, some 20 or 30 questions, 110 mins. with some essays.
Math, 20 questions, 120 mins, all essays.
and most of all,
Physics, 180 mins (3hrs), with only 7 questions.

lol


I wish at least one of us three will get a chance to go forward to the provincial competition, whoever that is :)
It's already been such an honor for me to compete in the same event twice in my senior-high life, thanks my great teacher, parents, friends, and dear God :)


take care all! xx

o es en bio 2011

OSN OSN OSN OSN OSN OSN OSN

oesen oesen oesen oesen oesen

o es en o es en o es en


*madness


10-05-11

besok ya? yaampuuun --a
bismillah aja lah hahaha

Don't judge

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