confession

okay, I admit it,
I do like you
well no I don't love you, I just like you,
I do,
because love is such a sincere word and can't be used easily

I do like you for a long time now
I remember eating together with you in the canteen
I remember sharing stories with you, emotionally
I remember you did text me and asked me to come earlier to listen to your stories,
your anger, your grieve, your disappointment

I remember things you said to me
I remember all your messages to me
I remember how you played with my hair
I remember how you pinched my cheek
I remember how you always ask me how do you look like
I remember how you kneeled in front of me, joked about the ring.
I remember how you almost hugged me that night

I remember you gave the beautiful bracelet,
I remember that night when we had the reunion
and you were with me all the time

I remember how happy you were when I gave that blue bracelet
I remember and I laughed when you lost that bracelet and felt really guilty about it
I remember how excited you were when you finally found that bracelet
I remember how you always came to my class,
doing nothing, just came, said hi, and sit next to me
and I remember when I turned my back,
and you called my name that way
and now was I the only one you invited?
why me?

I do remember all you've done to me
though I don't know whether you are just playing jokes at me,
or maybe no.

or maybe I am thinking too much about you?
a bit over-thinking about the possibilities?

well maybe,
but I've always known from the first,
I'm not that kind of girl you like
I know you must be joking all this time
we are never meant to be
although when I try to forget you and keep moving on
you always come and do something small,
that brings blushes on me

answer me,
don't make me drowning in my own mind,
thinking about you and those damn possibilities.





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I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I don't know what its like to land and not race through your door
I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore

I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I'm not sure that I really ever could
Hold on to your hotel key in your bedroom neighborhood
Me sleep-walkin in Hollywood

I'm gonna steer clear
I'd burn up in your atmosphere
I'm gonna steer clear
Cause I'd die if I saw you
I'd die if i didn't see you there
So i don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore

I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I'd get lost on the boulevard
Without your voice to tell me I love you take a right
the ten and the two is the loneliest sight

I'm gonna steer clear
I'd burn up in your atmosphere
I'm gonna steer clear
Cause I'd die if I saw you
I'd die if I didn't see you

I'm gonna steer clear, oh yeah
I'd burn up in your atmosphere
I'm gonna steer clear
Cause I'd die if i saw you
I'd die if I didn't see you there
See you there

Think I'm gonna stay, gonna stay in the gray
Think I'm gonna stay (gonna stay)
And the street lights say nevermind, nevermind
And the canyon lines say nevermind
The sunset says we see this all the time, nevermind
Never you mind

Wherever I go, Whatever I do
I wonder where I am in my relationship to you
Wherever you go, Wherever you are
I watch your life play out in pictures from afar

Wherever I go, Whatever I do
I wonder where I am in my relationship to you
Wherever you go, Wherever you are
I watch that pretty life play out in pictures from afar


(John Mayer - In Your Atmosphere)