6.28.2011

confession


okay, I admit it,
I do like you
well no I don't love you, I just like you,
I do,
because love is such a sincere word and can't be used easily

I do like you for a long time now
I remember eating together with you in the canteen
I remember sharing stories with you, emotionally
I remember you did text me and asked me to come earlier to listen to your stories,
your anger, your grieve, your disappointment

I remember things you said to me
I remember all your messages to me
I remember how you played with my hair
I remember how you pinched my cheek
I remember how you always ask me how do you look like
I remember how you kneeled in front of me, joked about the ring.
I remember how you almost hugged me that night

I remember you gave the beautiful bracelet,
I remember that night when we had the reunion
and you were with me all the time

I remember how happy you were when I gave that blue bracelet
I remember and I laughed when you lost that bracelet and felt really guilty about it
I remember how excited you were when you finally found that bracelet
I remember how you always came to my class,
doing nothing, just came, said hi, and sit next to me
and I remember when I turned my back,
and you called my name that way
and now was I the only one you invited?
why me?

I do remember all you've done to me
though I don't know whether you are just playing jokes at me,
or maybe no.

or maybe I am thinking too much about you?
a bit over-thinking about the possibilities?

well maybe,
but I've always known from the first,
I'm not that kind of girl you like
I know you must be joking all this time
we are never meant to be
although when I try to forget you and keep moving on
you always come and do something small,
that brings blushes on me

answer me,
don't make me drowning in my own mind,
thinking about you and those damn possibilities.





- 280611 -



I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I don't know what its like to land and not race through your door
I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore

I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I'm not sure that I really ever could
Hold on to your hotel key in your bedroom neighborhood
Me sleep-walkin in Hollywood

I'm gonna steer clear
I'd burn up in your atmosphere
I'm gonna steer clear
Cause I'd die if I saw you
I'd die if i didn't see you there
So i don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore

I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I'd get lost on the boulevard
Without your voice to tell me I love you take a right
the ten and the two is the loneliest sight

I'm gonna steer clear
I'd burn up in your atmosphere
I'm gonna steer clear
Cause I'd die if I saw you
I'd die if I didn't see you

I'm gonna steer clear, oh yeah
I'd burn up in your atmosphere
I'm gonna steer clear
Cause I'd die if i saw you
I'd die if I didn't see you there
See you there

Think I'm gonna stay, gonna stay in the gray
Think I'm gonna stay (gonna stay)
And the street lights say nevermind, nevermind
And the canyon lines say nevermind
The sunset says we see this all the time, nevermind
Never you mind

Wherever I go, Whatever I do
I wonder where I am in my relationship to you
Wherever you go, Wherever you are
I watch your life play out in pictures from afar

Wherever I go, Whatever I do
I wonder where I am in my relationship to you
Wherever you go, Wherever you are
I watch that pretty life play out in pictures from afar


(John Mayer - In Your Atmosphere)

6.21.2011

hurt

sakit dibohongi orang yang aku hormati dan aku percayai.

6.15.2011

Life Goes On - Kokia

Life goes on
Even if time passes by sadly, even if your heart seems to break
Life goes on
That's why I have to live strongly even if you're not here beside me
Even if I don't wish for tomorrow to come

Life goes on, that's why I have to live today
Even if I cry my heart out, something starts to change slowly
Life goes on

Just like a wind
These eyes can't see the beginning or the end, can you see it ?
Just like a wind
These hands can't grasp the beginning or the end

Life goes on, I'm still here
Life goes on, and my life won't wait for me

Life goes on
Even if time passes by sadly, even if your heart seems to break
Even if you're not here beside me
Even if I don't wish for tomorrow to come
Life goes on...

6.08.2011

Angklungku Sayang

aku sayaaaang banget sama keluarga Angklungku di SMAN 15 Surabaya,
dan aku nggak tahu harus mulai cerita dari mana .

let's start from the beginning.





8 Mei 2010

dimulai dari nol besar, kami memulai ekskul ini. berusaha mengumpulkan anggota sebanyak-banyaknya, yang mungkin tertarik untuk bergabung dan memainkan alat musik yang bisa dibilang, tidak terlalu banyak di daerah kami Surabaya.
mengumpulkan anak, yah bisa dibilang cukup memuaskan. awalnya ada lebih dari 25 orang bergabung,
namun memulai dari nol tentu tak semudah membalikkan telapak tangan.
kami kehilangan banyak anggota sepanjang perjalanan kami mengembangkan ekskul ini.
banyak yang keluar karena latihan angklung mungkin dianggap menyita waktu mereka, atau mereka sudah tidak tertarik lagi.

perjuangan baru dimulai.


wisuda SMAN 15 Surabaya - Juni 2010


Mei 2011

setahun sudah kami berjuang mengembangkan ekskul yang masih seumur jagung ini.
dengan kelulusan kakak-kakak kelas XII dan kakak kelas kami kelas XI yang naik ke kelas XII, kami kehilangan cukup banyak anggota.
kakak-kakak kelas kami yang kami andalkan sibuk dengan dunia mereka, mempersiapkan masa depan mereka, dan dengan terpaksa harus meninggalkan ekskul ini.

lalu masuklah adik-adikku tersayang (haha)
awalnya jujur saya sedikit pesimis, tidak yakin apakah saya dan teman-teman saya bisa melanjutkan ekskul ini, tanpa bantuan dari kakak kelas.
apalagi dari pengalaman tahun sebelumnya, hal tersulit adalah menjaga agar anggota tetap mau datang, dan tidak seenaknya keluar masuk ekskul.

dan ya, roda berputar,
ada waktu dimana saya merasa gagal total dalam melaksanakan tugas saya sebagai penerus dan pengurus ekskul tercinta ini.

walaupun begitu, tahun ini menjadi tahun yang bisa dibilang, cukup membuat ekskul kita menjadi semakin eksis diantara ekskul lain yang sudah membahana namanya.
kami diminta tampil di beberapa acara, dan cukup sukses.
membawakan lagu-lagu daerah, lagu pop indonesia, pop asing, sampai pop korea!

jujur, impian kami ingin membawa suara indahnya angklung ke luar negeri seperti jatuh sampai ke dasarnya,
setelah kami tahu bahwa di sana ternyata angklung berkembang sangat pesat.
bahkan lebih pesat dari disini. (link sekolah luar dengan angklung)
belum lagi melihat tampilan dari sekolah-sekolah di daerah asal alat musik ini, Bandung,
langsung membuat kami kecil hati. (link foto sekolah bandung setelah tampil di Esplanade, Singapura)


umur kami baru setahun.
masih jauh dan panjang jalan kami untuk menjadi lebih baik,
kedepannya, semoga.

:)

aku sayang kalian,
Angklungis 15 Surabaya :* (anabel)

menyambut tamu korea - Februari 2011


Libels Cup - April 2011


wisuda SMAN 15 Surabaya - Mei 2011


(dara.antares)

6.07.2011

berasa aneh

blog ku berasa isinya dari tumblr tok -____-
semoga bisa nulis yang lebih bermakna deh hahahaha




*apasehaha .__.v

6.06.2011

single in the jungle

time changes